You’ve left a label on my head.
It’s one that makes me wish I were dead.
It’s engraved in dried blood on my chest.
You’re a loser, it says, and I won’t dare tell you the rest.
My heart exploded and is scarred forever.
So much time putting all the pieces back together…
Now you show up again, you blame me as
A punishment for a sin you’ve already committed.
But you didn’t have to bring my love life to an end.
You were my first crush, and I love you…
Came out in such a rush and
So quickly came the rejection,
And there began my heart’s dissection.
Spent these last couple years
I’ve been looking for love
And each time there goes
Another piece of my shattered heart
You’re the lead of a conspiracy
That began with you
And slowly tore me apart.
Now it’s ironic, but I see you again
And seeing your pretty face is like a tonic
The bubbles speed up the healing a billion-fold
Now it’s kind of as if, I’ve gotten a new heart
But all I know, rejection comes again
And the cycle repeats itself
I’m now again sitting at start
But now I must put the past back
Up on the shelf - I must stop
Thinking of you as the cause
Of my destruction, but as
The builder of a new construction
That of a stronger, more seasoned me
If you’re ever looking for love
I’ll always be labeled open
For the girl that is my inspiration
With your silence, comes out your beauty
And with your voice comes out your sadness…
I felt making you happy was my duty
Suppose I was wrong…
Don’t mean to push you, but I suppose
Even the most harmless infatuation
Can be misread as an evil, twisted fake
Guess I’ll just have to move on
And consider my loving you so
One-sidedly - a grave childish mistake
But still I’ve labeled you “most beautiful”
I vow to love you even though
You're a source of constant sorrow
I vow to one day forget you
But the pain will forever remain