There are so many kinds of creativity I've discovered over the years. Creating melodies is one that I discovered at an early age. But I found that I never had the patience to compose music. I was much more content writing words. Unfortunately, I find now that my words oftentimes have limitations in expressing certain ideas. So did I make a major mistake in becoming a writer instead of a composer or musician?
Actually, I find that I have a burning passion for writing more than composing. I compose themes in my head all the time and hum them. Perhaps, I should record them. I usually forget them as soon as I would come up with them, though.
Strangely enough, a lot of my poems are like that, too. Even more interestingly, I’ve found that a lot of my best poems are actually written to those little ditties in my head. Perhaps, it's best that I became a poet with a musical mind.
Then again, I don’t necessarily consider myself a poet. Although from the massive collection of poetry that I’ve accumulated since 2002, I can't deny that I am. When I write a poem, I don’t sit there and construct it. It just happens. I don’t really compose poems. They just sort of happen. I certainly don’t compose the little musical snippets in my head. They simply happen.
I find my true passion is in the composition of prose. I enjoy tying together complex ideas in ways that I haven’t seen done before. Then, I try to share them in as clear and a concise a way as I can.
I was born to be a writer, and I know that. I do not regret pursuing prose writing to the maximum at all. But, I wonder sometimes what my brain is doing trying to stretch me out as a petty ditty composer and poet.
Sure, I have a passion for building. But, while poems and songs obviously can be built, I don’t build them. They are raw material that I can build from, yet I just capture what I can of them whenever it is seemingly convenient for me.
Yet, I don’t try to build around the poems and ditties that I create. Perhaps that is what is bothering me as a writer. I've built a good foundation, but I have not truly recognized what I’m trying to build. But, as I've found, it's much better to just let your passion fuel your creation, even if you don't quite yet understand the purpose of what you've created.
Sometimes, passion alone can create some pretty cool things. While I focus on prose, primarily, I do occasionally let my poetic side free. It helps me express things that I may be struggling with in prose. So, in that way, it's constructive for me to do something that I'm not crafting quite so precisely. It may not always be "good" or fit for publishing, but it's better to create something than nothing and keep your passion from going cold.
If you have a burning passion to create things, how do you channel this passion? I’d love to hear how you do it.
~ Phoenix <3
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