There are so many kinds of creativity that I have discovered over the years. Creating melodies is one that I discovered at an early age. But I found that I never had the patience to compose music. I was much more content writing words. Unfortunately, I find now that my words oftentimes have limitations in expressing certain ideas. So did I make a major mistake in becoming a writer instead of a composer or musician?
Actually, I find that I have a burning passion for writing more than composing. I compose themes in my head all the time and hum them. Perhaps I should record them. I usually forget them as soon as I would come up with them. Strangely enough, a lot of my poems are like that, too. Even more interestingly, I’ve found that a lot of my best poems are actually written to those little ditties in my head. So perhaps, it is best that I became a poet with a musical mind.
Then again, I don’t necessarily consider myself a poet. Although from the massive collection of poetry that I’ve accumulated since 2002, I cannot deny that I am. But “poet” will never be my occupation. When I write a poem, I don’t sit there and construct it. It just happens. I don’t really compose poems, and I certainly don’t compose the little musical snippets in my head. They just sort of happen.
I find my true passion is in the composition of prose. I enjoy tying together complex ideas in ways that I haven’t seen done before and trying to share them in as clear and a concise a way as I can. I was born to be a writer, and I know that. I do not regret pursuing prosaic writing to the maximum at all. But I wonder sometimes what my brain is doing trying to stretch me out as a petty ditty composer and poet.
The truth is that I have a passion for building, but while poems and songs obviously can be built, I don’t build them. They are raw material that I can build from, yet I just capture what I can of them whenever it is seemingly convenient for me. I continue to build blog after blog building around different concepts in various ways, always trying to see what works.
Yet I have these other avenues that I do not pursue. But still, I don’t try to build around the poems and ditties that I create. Perhaps that is what is bothering me and why I feel that as a writer I am doing well but not well enough. I have built a good foundation, but I have not truly recognized what I’m trying to build. But I will not know until I try. So wish me luck in this endeavor.
If you have a burning passion to create things, how do you channel this passion? I’d love to hear how you do it.
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