New resolve: Support my principles, not organizations

True, I've never been a joiner type. However, I have supported many organizations. It's always a positive experience at first, then gradually disappointing. Eventually, there's a point at which I realize that because I don't agree with some of the principles the organization stands for, it's time for me to take leave of it.

No matter how well intended an organization is, some of the actions and stances it takes are bound to contradict those of individual members. This may be OK for some people, as long as the main principles of the organization are in agreement with their own. It's not OK with me. I just don't feel right belonging to or supporting organizations I don't fully agree with.

I have individual, not group beliefs and feelings. While I believe forming connections is a natural thing, I also believe that we need to connect as the individuals we are. Having our unique abilities, thoughts and strengths swallowed up and shaped by a collective defeats the purpose of completely fulfilling our intended purpose. We are all needed in different ways. Squelching our differences is counterproductive.

Even when the intended actions and principles of an organization are pure, organizations are made up of individuals, some of whom will act outside of the intent of the group. Therefore, the group image becomes very different than the original founders had envisioned. It becomes tainted, for lack of a better word. Individuals and groups mix like oil and water. It looks like a good pairing at first glance but the only way to make it last is to keep shaking things up.

Peaceful groups can turn militant when faced with violent opposition. A lot of the problems with organizations are caused by mob mentality. It's human nature to fight back when we feel threatened. It's a survival instinct. However, it's easier to control our instincts when not egged on by the angry reactions of others.

It's true there's power in numbers. However, power is not my goal. Peace and loving kindness are my goal. As for safety in numbers, I believe numbers provide a false sense of security. Real security comes from following my own peace, loving beliefs and well intended directives. The same place fulfillment comes from.

Anyway, from now on, I'll be following my own convictions and my own path. I know what I stand for and no matter the organization, none of them adhere to all the principles I agree with. Many of them stray from their intentions. Others resort to militant behavoirs in self defense. That's not what I stand for. I stand for peace. It's time for me to create some.