WARNING: Long rambly, personal post about pain, life, and people that may eventually contain something valuable lol
I'm extremely pained, worn out, and sick and honestly not sure how I'm going to make it another week feeling like this. People keep saying to rest for me and the baby, but I'm not sure that's the best thing for either of us. Being in bed makes the pain and morning sickness worse, no matter how many pillows or positions or suggestions I try.
Of course, too much movement does the same. I'm more inclined to believe that an equal balance of everything is better. But what do I know? I'm just listening to the doctor's advice because he's never failed me in the past with all the other kids of mine he's delivered. However, the internet has failed many. LOL
Can I just fast forward to delivery time? That's the part of the pain I actually want to feel. I'm not getting an epidural or other pain relief, by choice. Some pains in life are meant to be felt, so that we can grow stronger. Everything in life is not always rosy and there's nothing wrong with being truthful. In fact, its healthier than holding it inside.
So, if you're among the few who don't want to hear my "complaining", you probably need to do some serious reexamining of life. It's about going through things and coming out stronger for everyone, not just yourself. I share what I do on the off chance that someone else with similar experiences can relate and/or be helped and I'll never apologize for doing so.
Anyhow, labor and delivery pain results in a baby: the best result ever. I suppose in a way this pain does too. But it's getting more difficult to go through this every second that goes by. Just posting this has helped, if only for the reason that it might resonate with someone else who needs to see it.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm off to keep feeling painful contractions, like always. Perhaps eventually, they will result in a baby. LOL
*P.S. The good news is that if she isn't here yet 7 days from now, the doctor can safely induce.