The thing is that I have a lot of trouble simply accepting life's little victories anymore. It's like I have to go hit a grand slam every single day with every single thing that I do. I'm setting grossly unrealistic expectations. This has happened to me before. I simply cannot accept that I need to just do what feels right and go with it. There's the matter of being able to provide myself and my family with what we need. These two things, the pursuit of happiness and realizing my vocation, should not be in conflict with one another. If they are, then you're doing something wrong. Clearly, I'm doing something wrong.
Writing is my first best skill, and yeah, I've been dabbling in making videos recently. I think I'm fairly good at it. I'm no filmmaker, and I really just do it for fun. I'm never going to give up the writing completely, but when I thought about doing vlogs awhile back, I never committed to the idea. I'm more articulate in writing than I am in speech, but sometimes there are things that I'm much better at verbalizing in speech than in written text. I tried using speech-to-text, but it came out awkwardly. It's not really the same thing as just making a quick little video. I think my issue with committing to it is sticking with something that works. Some people do 365 day challenges. I don't like to plan for things like that. It just doesn't work for me. I have a need to be spontaneous, hence why my blog is called The Ultimate Random.
So where do I go from here? Should I commit to doing vlogs about whatever random thing I'm doing that day? I shouldn't worry so much about making it interesting, because it's really more about identifying the moments in life that we should appreciate more. If things feel too ordinary or routine it's easy to lose sight of the fact that life is an amazing gift. We need to step back from our concerns once in a while just to appreciate the little beauties and complexities around us. Perhaps that should be my focus going forward.
So in a way, I could commit to a 365 day challenge to always be sure to do something incredibly spontaneous at least once a day. Seems like a good habit to get into.