I'm such a pack rat, and while it's not as bad with words as it is with material objects, I decided it was time to let a lot of the nonsense go. Perhaps it would have been a better idea to simply close that LiveJournal. But it’s not going to hurt me, so what the hell? There's hardly anything damning there.
Simply for the historical exercise, it was worth perusing these old entries that were actually still public. I'm rather embarrassed to say that I even produced many of them. Some of the poetry and lyrics weren't bad, but I had those saved elsewhere anyway. It's obvious to say that I've come a long way in the years since I wrote prolifically on there.
Still, there are some things that I have captured into new documents for archival purposes, simply because they reflect some germ of rational thought. Even if it was not obvious at the time, I simply didn’t give proper treatment to the ideas that I did have at the time. I was such a naive soul who knew very little of how his mind worked and of its true potency and capabilities.
I have always alternated between prose and poetry. It’s not really at will, but simply as however the words that come to me dictate. Sometimes a rhyme scheme can be very comforting, and sometimes free-form verse is all I can do to clear my head. But most of the time, just airing it out in a few paragraphs is enough to leave me feeling satisfied.
It's good to see that I've made progress leaps and bounds over the past several years. But I do feel that there is a part of my past there that I've lost forever. I preserved the more rational and – barely - intellectual portions of for the purposes of one day expanding upon the little concepts I had then. Perhaps, it was to prove to myself that I have really come that far, but also that I will always have much further to go. Since then, I’ve rewritten a lot of them with varied amounts of success. It was practice that I badly needed, in any case.
Oh, I was once such a naive soul, but I have learned so much since then. And, from reading what little I knew then, I have learned so much...
Originally written January 4, 2011 and revised December 9, 2014.