Every day is different and with each day comes a slightly different way of thinking. Who we are alters slightly with every minutia of information that's fed to our minds. Most people are familiar with thinking linearly, but I don't. I tend to think of things as being along a spectrum. Knowing what information you had isn't nearly as important as the information you didn't have or couldn't have realistically had in any way.
Yet at times I feel like I need to constantly return to myself at a different point in the space-time continuum to "correct" a mistaken judgment. It's as if we can rewrite our lives by taking whiteout and simply writing over the screw-ups in red ink. Well, existence as how we linear human beings understand it just doesn't work that way, and probably for extremely good reason.
So how do I combat these feelings of "I shoulda woulda" and "If I only knew then what I know now?" I have to share the "Good stuff" that I've learned since I screwed up. Heck, when I really think about things that I would've considered mistakes not that long ago, I realize that these were learning experiences that made me a it better person for having experienced them. A lot of the "Bad stuff" in our lives can be turned around into "good stuff" if we take the proper time to reflect on these experiences.
I simply don't take the time to simply let go of the day-to-day and reflect on my own thought process anymore. That was the way that I got through so many lonely times, heartbreak, and rejection for simply being who I am. When I look back at those reflections now, I simply did not have the right perspective on what I was actually learning at the time. It seems I've forgotten the true depths of my own mind and that I have neglected a great portion of my intelligence for too long. It's time I got back to what I was born to do.
Time to write some "good stuff!"